Recently

Recently,

Especially after I have ended out my contract... my working life,

I'm totally becoming a free man.

last week was quite busy in preparing many things on PTPTN registration, U application & also Medical check up.

& also quite confuse about the system,

perhaps my language problems is once of my serious weakness.

haha...

during 9th of september,

my frens and i went to UM meet one of the colleagues - Eric

haha,

he had ask us to yum cha for long time ago,

see!

how busy i am!

but everything went wrongly.

that day,

i head to kelana jaya station,

and actually he was at university station...

& actually we are late,

now become more late...

= ="

luckily Eric is always nice mood,

then 1st station we went to oldtown to yum cha.

after that David suddenly planned to go to Midvalley to watch movie,

and the plan was not in the schedule that i planned on today...

but we went Midvalley to watch captain america and also play bowling together.

after finish our movie,

we went to a mamak to having our dinner,

then went to another high class place to yum cha.

About 11pm then we only say goodbye.

Yesterday,

I bring a lot of document to school for principal to certificate it,

and also find teachers and disturb them...

XD

& I went to the UBC farewell event to have a look,

suddenly i saw 3 people that I long time didnot see them,

Dmond, Lilfish & Wayne,

and we a having enjoyable time

P/S - suddenly heavy n thunder storm,

I wanna close my pc asap...

05.08.2011

It has been quite a long time i left out here since April...

now i am back to update my recent news...

my contract has been ended since last week,

which mean no more income will be earned,

but i think i have earned a lots during this 7 & half months working period.

and i have bought a galaxy S2 last month,

is cool!

but quite difficult to use it...

smart phone and normal phone really can't compete...

and now i can enjoy my phone like playing PSP,

touch screen keyboard,

access to flash game,

google map gps & etc......

ok,

i am not showing off my phone,

as the time passed,

the phone will be surpassed by new model with new technology and advanced specification.

they have few problems come lately,

the device will be hot after continuous using for few hrs;

and facing a troublesome hang when i playing game,

properly i will have to go the samsung service central to have a lagfix.

but is smooth compare with other 1 core with 1ghz device.

next,

i am quite happy because i have received UM offer letter.

for the next month,

i will start my university life,

and life that differ with secondary and primary school.

feel very excited but very scare that im unable to follow up the lessons.

since English is my weakness.

trying my best~

and hope i can able to change majoring to computer science^^

but before entering,

they are so many troublesome application form and step to apply,

and everything also need to approve by those big things...

grrr....

and not only that,

enter U,

all is about $$,

dammit,

going for medical check up cost me rm190,

and photostat fess almost cost me rm10,

buying pin no. for ptptn rm5,

n soon need to buy setem hasilan which cost rm10 each and i still not yet noe how many shuld i buy...

n soon i have to pay for the orientation week fees which cost rm250++

faint~~~~

life is really hard if without money~~~!!!!

and i hope i can smart like my brother,

he is really smart in study that i can't surpass...

+ i easy feel nervous when facing a lot of people...

haha...

quite down because i always fail to overcome it...

maybe is passive...

next,

i went to digital lifestyle expo last week,

haha,

this is the 1st time i take photo for there's road show girl,

haha...

actually i want to do it for the long time,

but i not dare to do so...

n nw,

finally i do it...

and in the game zone,

the nicest pic that the camera man took for me is nice!

love this photo so much and thanks to the road show girl,

making me have a nice memory before entering University,

(but i feel very nervous when a pretty laying on me since it was my 1st time a girl so near me...)

haha...

suddenly feel myself so hamsap...

final,

joseph finally enter college and starting her university college life,

n he is studying at MAHSA,

n taking physiotherapy degree.

hope he can success his study la~

p/s:-

will be purchasing a new laptop 2mr,

hope everything go smooth,

and hope i really can concentrate on my study...

7 months never contact with her,

and never see her...

dunno how r her right now,

but i hope that she can always feel happy everyday,

and i think my will can be put down...

coz it is too heavy...

this kind of experience once enough la,

no more......

18.04.2011 (Saturday)

i woke up around 6pm,

took a bath n got ready to waiting Sally come & fetched me...

Unfortunately,

the weather started to rain...

a short rain...

by the time we reached LRT Wangsa Maju Station,

Terry, Wee Leng, Angela, Nicole, Miki and Mike's mother had waited at there...

then together heading to the destination today - Saga Hill

Ampang,

quite a long journey,

until i unable to recognize the way to there...

haha...

all seemed to be very eager to climb the hill,

climbing without doing soft exercise...

+_+"

although the weather in Ampang was good,

the hill road was wet...

and the road not easy to walk,

coz there was not a fine road like FIRM to walk,

was really need to climb...

And hard...

but for me,

this was not the hardest that i met,

considered normal la...

Nicole,

really impressive,

she wore very very short pant...

= ="

prayed the mosquito wont bite her...

Miki,

wow...

never imagined she was strong,

from the beginning,

she was the fastest!

Angela,

haha,

needed to train harder,

coz her vital energy was limited,

kept on gasping for air...

Darrel, Terry, Wee Leng & Iwen,

no problem at all,

but pity Wee Leng,

coz he wore a new nike shoes for the trip...

XD

After 1 hr+,

reached the top hill,

finally...

1st 1st sure rest lo...

since got many ppl running out of energy,

then started to take photos~

XD

~ skip ~

and the happy hours was too short,

the weather started turned bad,

and rained...

kao!

the road became more slippery,

Ouch...

every1 climb down very carefully,

scared flip from the hill...

~ skip ~

After 1hrs+

finally got down from the hill before the rain became heavy...

and proceed to Miki house and took bath...

After that went to Ampang Yong Tau Fu to have our breakfast (Lunch) there...

Haha...

~ skip ~

3pm+,

i reached Sg Wang...

i missed the sing k event...

sry terence...

i can't make it on time...

and bought a rm100 nike sport pant...

kao!

i thought special price rm59.9...

N

i regret why i did not refuse to purchase it...

kao...

rm100 = my 2 weeks Lunch ler!!!!

= =...

suan...

took this lesson and never repeat next time,

but if i knew the price was around that digit...

P/S:

History can't be erased,

will be always store in your heart, mind...

and the scene and the sound circulate around my brain...

making i suffer a lot...

but,

everything was my fault,

and never forget...

just can blame myself always make a wrong decision when the thing come in climax...

i need to CALM DOWN!!!

07-09.04.2011

09.04.2011

early in the morning,

wake by my sis...

force to go to take new IC...

argh!

but luckily,

i no need to renew again because my mom n sis have to chg due to the pic is too dark...

haha...

however,

my phone break when im waiting them...

haiz....

and trap in my sis bio lab...

= =...

and received a call from terence...

inviting me to timesquare shopping...

haha...

wait har...

nw trap in UM...

haha...

3pm,

reach TS...

kao...

Sandra and Maggie...

= ="

shocked!!!

but nvm la...

keep on shoot them...

XDXDXDXD

5pm,

party end...

and as usual...

i go there again...

haha...

nth much wanna to say...

say too much edi...

haha...

08.04.2011

Early in the morning,

I drive to TimeSquare,

because got max credit,

so very cheap~

RM8 whole day~

hehe...

Damn!

Traffic Jam 4 times in the morning...

and the time started very rush...

luckily i work on time~

phew...

i thought i am late...

but LRT is fast!

i love the spd!!!!

then work...

and reach last minutes...

got many case route into my Q...

ohno!

so lucky...

n luckily Oi Ping let us cabut earlier...

if not i think i nid to work until 6pm...

Around 7pm

reach LOT 10

Syabu Syabu~~~

and u will never believe...

1st time i enter syabu syabu...

n i dunno wat to do...

self-service~

take as many as u can eat...

lol!

haha...

enjoy the joke...

and most funny is burn maggie mee~

wakakakaka!!!!

can't tahan...

really Ki Siao...

take so much!!

a big family~

haha...

but every time i drive there...

there must be a place i will drop by...

a sad place...

i stop at there for 30mins,

the tiredness make me fall at sleep...

every night i heard mah jong's sound...

haha...

and love u......

07.04.2011

this day is the suck day...

early in the morning,

as i cleaning my Q...

suddenly a "bomb" sound come...

and the electricity cut off...

and every1 started to stand out...

see what is happening...

kao...

the power supply bomb already...

after few mins,

boss come told us about the situation,

and will hav several staff heading to the main office for working..

and i'm the lucky 1...

haha...

but the plan later cancelled...

coz the electricity is back...

but jus can support small power only...

then i'm working under hooooottttttt (without fan) environment...

in noon,

boss arrange some ppl go buy some fans back...

haha...

then plug it out...

but also very hot...

coz the weather is very hot lo...

XD

n those malay girls...

hate them,

steal the fan from me...

!@#$%^&*()_+....

5pm,

the TNB settle the electricity...

but i already "bath"...

=_=...

OT lo~

06.04.2011

Argh!

very tired...

since when i feel tired...

really tired...

Hmm...

thinking some1...

missing some1...

very...

very...

much...

every time i sleep,

always dreaming...

causing i feel very tired...

haha...

look at the phone...

want to sms but do not have such a power anymore...

just like a stupid looking at the fb...

really...

thousand sound in my heart...

n arguing...

haha...

stop stop stop!

fuyoh!

ytd like get shooting by our big sis Oi Ping,

send a msg to us said that:

u all not key in data very fast meh?

why still got so many cases in ur Q?

haha...

shoot tio gao gao lak...

but really work...

we speed up the speed than normal...

XD...

funny~

n this monday was Pui Fun's Birthday...

haha...

actually i also dunno...

last mins only know...

quickly go buy a present to her...

quite a big gift,

n i noe she sure like it very much...

since her zi mui so many...

all started jealous and keep on inform me theirs birthday is coming soon...

hahaha...

just replied: blek~!

P/S:

looking forward to this friday steamboat in Lot10...

20+ ppl!

kao!

siao liao!

XD

27.03.2011

Go to graveyard today,

and the weather seem like very nice...

until 9am,

the sun still block by cloud...

7.45am

go to my 5th uncle house,

and then proceed to the first station before going to 仪山,

that is Earth God...

now i know the Earth God has changed to a new building...

i think i absence the trip for few years already~

then started to pray my grand grandfather?

haha...

i also blur blur...

but will never 4get always having a traffic jam be4 entering that side...

10.00am

half of the family members dismiss,

because my sister is having some thesis to do in her school,

and accompanied by my mum...

proceeding to Manjalera's side to pray my grand grandmother and grandparents...

and the hot sun breaks through the cloud,

shoot on the land...

HHOOOOTTTTTT!!!!!

aiks...

quite sad...

when i come to this world,

just left my grandmother only...

and i hate why i'm so naughty...

make my grandmother angry...

very regret now...

but everything has become a history...

and never has the chance to rewrite the history...

and also the incident...

22.03.2011

Time passes without waiting...

and 3month have passed...

the same batch's friends all end theirs work...

left 4 of us...

and theirs works came to us...

ARGH!

so many...

i thought this few days needed to keep on OT...

Suddenly felt very hate myself...

no matter how i hated myself,

it was still me...

what a faked face...

no 1 would know the deep inside me...

trapped forever...

and unable too stood up...

ARGH!

missed you a lots...

But everything already gone...

20.03.2011

7.ooam in the morning...

so early wake up!

because wants to renew my IC.

After breakfast,

heading to Damansara Heights...

Passing by Help college...

N also Mahsa college...

and my mood has changed...

ya...

she is studying as Physiotherapy course at there...

haha...

still haven't forget about her...

finally reached JPN...

and shock...

lesser people when compare to last time i made IC...

just take 30mins,

finish all the progress and inform that after 2 weeks can come and take the new IC...

This few days I acted very frivolous...

when facing those new trainee in my office...

especially lady...

perhaps in the other words,

spoiling my image...

Acted very gay,

very color wolf,

and etc...

and never knew why I act like that...

Maybe I want to cover the other of me...

Maybe I avoid them to have a good feeling about me...

Maybe my personality has changed...

Maybe I am still waiting for her...

Still thinking about the dream ytd...

I dreamed about her again,

and in the dream, she was very happily with a guy...

once again i felt frustrated...

Really wanted to know,

how to chase u!?

......

....

..

Dream changed again...

I met a lady...

wearing was quite sexy,

and suddenly I became a hungry wolf,

uncontrollable heading to that lady and started to xxxx her...

and i woke up...

was that me?

but I could felt my anger, my hunger, my sadness, N etc when I acted...

ki siao!?

or enjoying?

who know?

14.03.2011 (White Valentine's Day)

If i do not read newspaper...

i never knew that beside valentine's day in 14.02.2011,

still got another white valentine's day in 14.03.2011...

argh...

again...

i think about her...

haha...

crazy sia...

uncontrollable took out my phone,

type:"Happy White Valentine's Day..."

when i was going to send it...

my heart started silly-shally...

maybe she already forget about me...

maybe she already very hate me...

maybe she...

haha...

cancelled the msg again...

brain started to think which gift should i gave her...

but heart told me that did not think too much anymore...

......

felt very contradicted...

but no choice...

coz really love her...

and dunno why?

...

12.03.2011

12.03.2011

Sg. Wang~

I'm coming~

I reached there at 4pm,

kao!

Korean food fair?

What's happened?

Not suppose was Anthony Neely's concert?

= ="

And my phone rang...

Ng and Terence reached already...

went back time square...

kao!

raining...

& I forgot to bring my umbrella......

aiks...

no choice...

hanging around time square, low yat & final station Sg. Wang...

Kao!

6.30pm,

all scene were changed...

Korean food fair was gone...

become Anthony Neely's poster...

&...

So Many People!!!!!

We went to eat Mc Donald 1st~

7.30pm...

The concert started!

Luckily i got a not bad place...

Anthony Neely started his 1st song,

~第一課~

And i forgot to record it...

End with 2nd song,

~散場的擁抱~

I got recorded!

& I was shocked...

because Wai Yee worked part time at there...

Haha...

I thought i Eye Flower tim...

get signature~

Lesson One's Album

Anthony Neely's signature

11pm,

I came out from Time Square,

And i reached a place,

I suddenly stopped...

I got out...

listening song...

"Sorry That I Loved You"

I saw the light was on...

I knew that she had not slept yet...

Do not know why...

I stand there for 30mins...

like waiting for something...

& the song kept on repeating...

Hoping that she would open the window and looked outside...

But...

I thought too much...

This thing won't be happened...

3rd Person...

Never forgive myself...

Sorry That I Loved You...

Leaving with my blessing...

A happiness blessing...

always bless for you...

always beside you...

always protect you...

& Love You...

P/S - Really Miss YOU!!!!!

06.03.2011

05.03.2011

I was heading to KLGCC's club just now,

damn high class...

and i felt myself like sakai edi~

the club could be like 5 star club...

the beautiful scene couldn't remove from my brain...

N i felt very no face ler...

went to this high class place by my little kancil...

XDXDXDXDXD

and the guard saw it also no wanted to choi me...

~skip~

reach inside...

saw many people were busying chip-chatting with each other...

maybe my parents wore not enough high class...

~skip~

N the big boss coming out,

and called us to have a seat at table no.3...

I kept on look on the normal table frm behind...

23... 19... 13... 6... 3!!!!

N very surprisingly...

VIP table no.3

My eye din blur~~~~!!!!!

kao!

i never thought that i could have a seat in VIP table...

and this anniversary i also dunno what lai geh ler~~

and i asked my mum...

Propharm (M) Sdn Bhd????

nvm heard it...

but quite a big company...

coz got oversea ppl eg:korean...

i really shock...

and VIP really have special treat...

eating also got 1 waiter help u to take the food 1 by 1...

= ="

1st time eat like that...

actually last year got 1 time de,

but that time i was in PLKN,

so i didnot attend this anniversary...

Hehehe~

~ Skip ~

Tonight dunno why kept on drink wine...

i looked at other guys,

all drank wine kept on laughing,

like very happy and enjoy...

when i drank wine...

i kept on thought of her...

damn...

another few glasses again...

aiks...

is really...

i couldnot fall down....

and felt more and more clear what am i doin nw...

...

Just 1 week i knew her...

why could i...

...

why?

i wanted to 4get...

why?

the image kept on appeared...

why?

the words at that night once again appeared...

why?

where did i did wrong?

was that falling in love with a girl was a wrong thing?

why?

i would love her?

why?

sry...

maybe i was really drunk...

in my heart...

01.03.2011

I can declare that,

i still think of her...

haha...

too stupid...

Although i already know is impossible...

just want to say,

i'm fine,

i wont do crazy things la...

so...

no need to worry...

P/S - just wondering whether she feels happy when receive my gifts...

21.02.2011

AAAARRRRGGGHHHHH

Exam result coming out today...

Damn nervous...

Whole day at office can't calm down...

and finally check the result via mobile...

PA - B-

MT - B-

PHY - B

CHEM - B

CGPA: 2.84

I think not bad gua...

but...

not very cukup maken for entering U...

nvm bah...

i edi noe it...

coz...

i really no mood!

Speechless

20.02.2011

Melancholia...

i remember dunno which day,

i read a article...

about the phenomenon...

kao...

13 list i match 8++

kao...

perhaps...

One day really will gila sot sot...

wakakakaka!

dunno why...

this few days i keep on saw my hairs are dropped...

kao...

also dunno why...

no nid few weeks,

sure become botak la...

hahahahaha!

19.02.2011

1 day pass 1 day,

the result gonna come next monday...

abit worry...

i noe myself...

coz really very hard...

i got confident to pass all sub,

but i din hav confident to take a good result...

and after taking result,

still nid to worry whether can enter U or not...

enter U...

quite a big problem...

aiks...

and then,

about the job,

3month contract is goona end,

and just get news from manager,

they just have 1 year contract only...

but she said will let us noe ASAP...

meaning nid to be prepare to find another part time again...

Ouch...

head big...

so fast nid to leave this place...

the 1st long term job i do...

but i nid to get prepare to find 2nd job...

really headbig la...

so many troublesome things come together...

kao...

also dunno still got how long i can hold...

aiks...

tired...

tired make 1 ppl do wrong decision,

moody make 1 ppl easy to angry...

kao!

P/S:

Is Life Like That? Who know......

18.02.2011

Every friday,

usually is very less work to do,

and some more we need to clear the back log by end of this month,

many cases can't spawn out...

and Sharon call me to be a supervisor for those late joiner...

actually i can't believe that i become supervisor lo...

first first very happy,

but after that feel very moody again...

About Zoe & Abii,

dunno why suddenly feel very hate her edi...

when they get the system,

they very eager to ask me to teach them...

after teach them,

they act like big sifu,

teach the rest...

Haha...

I no comment and speechless...

but 1 thing make me more angry is what Zoe's said when i ask them to come to my place,

"We have already learn this edi,

u still got other things can teach meh?"

Kao!

One feeling,

BEH SONG!

i think when Sharon ask me to teach them,

i shouldn't accept the job!

i edi very moody jor la,

still want add oil on fire!

u think that u learn this u edi genius la?

Jiak sai la!

Pui!

And David said they r like us last time,

now i reply u,

nah!

is totally difference la!

last time we learn this we din hav so big TONE!

"We have already learn this edi,

u still got other things can teach meh?"

never appear from our mouth,

we r very modest when our supervisor teach us la!

This ppl is "know little then thought herself is very geng!"

actually i jus learning basic things,

n u learn is very tiny basic thing la!

still say wanna go SG there work,

if u this kind of reply,

supervisor sure fuk kao u gao gao...

zzzZZZ

And about David,

also abit beh song him edi,

keep on lying,

n after lying,

the face still very tebal said i dunno o...

Example,

about the ADD cases i have edi told u once kayathri tell me la,

today u still inform me u ask seng hong n noe clearly jor...

kao!

i said i remember last time when kayathri tell me i got tell u la...

and not this only la,

got many things i tell u edi jor la,

but ur answer: no! i din remember u got tell...

Pui!

Jiak shai!

and then about game,

kao!

edi promise when reach 120lv wait Ng,

u exceed until 124lv for what?

still say wanna help me up lv until i reach 120lv...

kao!

i no nid ur help!

coz if i nid u to help,

u sure play until no limit,

then Ng ler?

zzzZZZ

I'm very moody,

better be clever abit la!

17.02.2011

Every Thursday,

HOD make a morning briefing,

like chatting,

sharing story,

and giving some latest important info.

Today,

quite a special day,

coz this day very long until exceed 2hrs...

1st is about the department of the company,

how the data will flow from 1 department to another...

2nd,

next week (meaning this week),

Auditor from SG will come to the company to audit,

and this auditor very fierce,

so,

special inform us to know what is "do and not do"...

very long speech la...

~ skipped ~

and then continue by HOD's boss - CAP,

another long speech again...

talk about 1 hr for few things,

and keep creating story...

but maybe this is what we call - humor...

And today one of the staff, name Ilya ask for my help,

about how to abort a case,

and give this case make me also blur edi...

and force to call Eric to help...

actually i can handle it,

but i din check it clearly...

coz really no mood...

and the late joiner, Shinley say i looked fierce...

Haha...

I look fierce?

i also dunno...

face that day incident,

not fierce more weird...

14.02.2011

What a fake smile...

But also need to hold the sad mood to enjoy the party...

Hahahaha!

16.02.2011

贫血の男 is stupid,

he is fool, noob and weak!

dai sei! dai sei! dai sei!

always give chance to other ppl,

n finally himself hurt.

no word can describe his weakness...

Pui!

3rd ppl go hell~

Pui!

lose self-respect for 1 girl,

the stupidest in the world~

Pui!

waste money for 1 girl that make him die~

Pui! Pui! Pui!

Noob!!!!!!!!!!

14.02.2011 (A Day That Never 4get)

14.02.2011

Today is a special day,

one is valentine's day,

one is Pei Qi's birthday...

After work,

i went to her house.

A big condo that i passed by everyday without visiting the buildings,

very nice and beautiful buildings,

but built in a death end...

wasted...

That day has a thing that bother me all the day,

about her,

maybe due to my wrong explanation the days be4 that day,

everything had ended.

i could say my fault again...

ALL IS MY FAULT!

On the half way the party was celebrating,

i couldn't hold anymore...

i went out,

went to her house...

And unfortunately,

she was not around...

i very anxious,

and i called her many times...

until a voice came out,

not her voice but his friend...

She was outside...

i had no choice...

dropped a msg to her and went back the party...

Half way back...

very jam...

dunno where got accident and got ambulance cross by...

my phone rang...

i took up my phone and i shocked,

a guy's voice...

"hmm...

r u daryl?

i'm her bf...

can u get lost?

can u dun kacau her?

i'm very bo song ler..."

and i ended the call,

but gave polis saw jor...

too late...

all was too late...

stupid tears came out like water pipe,

and the heartbeat suddenly heavy...

...

...

After that,

i backed to the party,

n i laugh very happily...

like very enjoy the party...

About 11.30pm,

i left...

i felt very very tired...

i stop my car beside the road...

and the sadness that i hold during the party had split out...

Argh!

Hurt!!!!!!!!

sorry Pei Qi,

that night i really can't enjoy...

sorry to her,

coz i not understand her at all...

That day after i sent the gift,

i missed up a chocolate...

and i unblock her and tell her...

and i accidently see...

"Why's like that? We are not good friends? Why you always do not tell me about u?"

i shock...

"i want to tell,

but u never care about me,

what for i tell?"

Valentine's day...

isn't a day to tell the 1 u love about what u feel?

why?......

I prefer become ur lover than ur fren,

if u really unhappy about the decision i made,

then be fren,

but i still will continue to love u,

coz this is what my heart said.

But...

I never thought that u got bf after separated...

im really shocked...

and i feel i will never forgive myself...

i very hate 3rd person...

but now i has become 3rd person!!!!!

I am Living Death now...

and all my self-respect have gone...

I'm failure!!!

i rather die than living...

and until now,

i still can't believe why i still can live until now?

I am suppressed...

Maybe i miss my family and friends,

so i can live until now?

but i just hope that 1 day got 1 car or 1 murderer can kill me...

make me free...

Hahaha...

this day like happen ytd...

perhaps last minutes...

the speech keep on running around my eardrum, my brain...

everyday when i closed my eye,

that night's image fall again...

and a voice whisper in my heart:

"u r failure!

2nd time u have told her still fail!

u r 3rd person!

u will suppress for ur whole life!

u r failure!

coz u hurt her!"

and i keep on speak to myself, strongly:

"i'm 3rd person?

i hate 3rd person and now i'm 3rd person?

why i so stupid until never expect this thing?

i'm late again?

what have i done?

am i wrong again?

i............

..........

....."

Suddenly fail very hate myself...

wan to cut myself...

wan to kill myself...

coz of kindness,

i'm like a fool going around...

coz of kindness,

i missed many chance...

coz of kindness,

i always hurt...

coz of kindness,

i lost my self-respect!

sry...

i cant hold anymore...

thks for ur reply...

i'm tired...

sry...

......................

.............

......

..

this few days passed by very slowly...

everyday i have drunk...

and the taste is bitter and sour...

tiredness make me no want to wake up...

tiredness make me want to rest 4ever...

tiredness make me going to be crazy...

why am i so kind?

i asked myself...

and this question i asked since when i was young...

and now i'm falling into darkness...

and never wake up anymore...

never...

coz 贫血の男 has died...

coz his heart is badly spoiled...

but never regret what he have done for her

~ 贫血の男 's last word ended ~

why i din die?

coz the evil side of me!!

wahahahahahaha!!!!!

The END

~ 12.02.2011 ~

Finally...

I sent it...

Finally...

I finished it...

Finally...

I left it...

And the weather getting bad...

And started to rain...

I heart was tired...

but no tear dropped...

because I had dropped too much...

Since 2009 until now...

And...

Finally I broke out with her...

MSN blocked,

Facebook blocked...

Just I did not know how to delete blog...

This blog created was because of her,

now this blog was closed also because of her...

1 last sentence,

Love You,

Could Not Bear To Say GoodBye

My story END...

Total: RM400

*Mean Sibeh*

08-09.02.2011

~08.02.2011~

Bai Nian Event~

9am in the morning,

i reached chen guan's house,

and there were 7 people only...

and then we went to Te Siang house bai nian,

and very fast until my house...

followed by Andrew, Edward, Henly, and finally Anthony.

Lunch we ate Bak Kut Teh

Dinner we ate KFC (Edward treat^^)

haha...

all gambler liked gambling,

if i not mistaken,

i had won 70rm in that day...

but Edward very lucky, wan about 200rm+

just very remember 1 round was,

i put rm10,

and we played 21point,

that round my hand got 4 card already,

total point was 14,

and i dare to take risk,

and the 5th card is 7!!!!

dragon! 21 points! triple!

and still remember that time anthony asked me:

r u sure u r going to get again?

u gamble rm10 ler!

now i thought back,

hey dai gor,

if i din take,

i no enuf point~~~

XDXD

P/S -

Actually i not enjoy at all...

i forced myself to be happy...

when reach the time nothing to do,

i keep on think of her...

coz i understand...

impossible already...

aiks...

~09.02.2011~

Waaa...

Really dangerous!

On the way from Putra to Segambut,

the wire suddenly broke!

And what i could hear is "Bim! Bam! Booomb!" and also "MA! MA!"

i was shocked!

what happen!?

and then the train stop for several minutes...

i could feel that oxygen getting low!

coz the train i traveled to work usually were crowded with people until the train gonna bomb...

Many people felt hardly to breath.

and a captain came out,

and trying to open the door...

failure!

i thought i would die in the train due to lack of oxygen.

I had nothing left,

coz i knew i lost her,

moody until wanna search for die...

but i remember i still got 1 last mission hadn't completed yet...

i needed to survive until i sent the last gift to her...

then only i could go anytime anywhere...

and fortunately,

2nd time,

captain opened the door...

and we got out to breath the oxygen!

And dammit!

i had been informed that i needed to sit the train back to KL and wait for the next train n get back...

my friends and i were going to walk to the nearest bus stop or find taxi...

Taxi a?

eat shit la!

we very hardly found a taxi with no customer,

but he did not stop and continue drove...

and the Jalan Kuching very hard to find Taxi and Bus stop...

Luckily got 1 nice person offered to drop us in brem mall...

really thks to him,

some more the weather was very bad,

not longer,

a heavy rain dropped...

WUM 9154,

i will never 4get the car no.

and i will bless for the nice person for "rescue" us~

Hope God Bless You!!!!!

05.02.2011

Today i treat my family watch movie

- Shao Lin -

Quite nice,

but really not very suitable for those who is under 18,

coz the story is about war...

"刘德华" who formally was a leader of a troops but finally turn out to be a "sami".

he betray by his brother, "谢霆锋" who rescued by "刘德华".

~ skip ~

What make "刘德华" wake up from a killing machine?

his daughter's death...

which killed during an ambush by "谢霆锋"

got 1 part i really emotion is when his daughter is died,

"刘德华" really turn up to be crazy,

can't believe his daughter die becouse of him...

and finally he join Shao Lin,

chges from fierce to be kind...

~booking ticket through internet banking~

After finishing the movie,

almost 10pm+

suddenly think of her,

i sms her...

and as i thought,

no reply...

aiks...

maybe she is on bed...

and my family and i go for my relative's party...

and i drink wine during the party...

the taste like bitter n sour...

haha...

1am reach home...

open computer...

play little while maple story...

and thinking about the presents...

almost 90% completed...

just lack of materials...

need find 1 day go buy...

Thks for ryan,

u r really right...

i'm afraid...

even in dream...

last week,

again...

a dream...

she left...

ya...

i really afraid we will never be friend anymore...

haha...

"胆小!"