27.03.2011

Go to graveyard today,

and the weather seem like very nice...

until 9am,

the sun still block by cloud...

7.45am

go to my 5th uncle house,

and then proceed to the first station before going to 仪山,

that is Earth God...

now i know the Earth God has changed to a new building...

i think i absence the trip for few years already~

then started to pray my grand grandfather?

haha...

i also blur blur...

but will never 4get always having a traffic jam be4 entering that side...

10.00am

half of the family members dismiss,

because my sister is having some thesis to do in her school,

and accompanied by my mum...

proceeding to Manjalera's side to pray my grand grandmother and grandparents...

and the hot sun breaks through the cloud,

shoot on the land...

HHOOOOTTTTTT!!!!!

aiks...

quite sad...

when i come to this world,

just left my grandmother only...

and i hate why i'm so naughty...

make my grandmother angry...

very regret now...

but everything has become a history...

and never has the chance to rewrite the history...

and also the incident...

22.03.2011

Time passes without waiting...

and 3month have passed...

the same batch's friends all end theirs work...

left 4 of us...

and theirs works came to us...

ARGH!

so many...

i thought this few days needed to keep on OT...

Suddenly felt very hate myself...

no matter how i hated myself,

it was still me...

what a faked face...

no 1 would know the deep inside me...

trapped forever...

and unable too stood up...

ARGH!

missed you a lots...

But everything already gone...

20.03.2011

7.ooam in the morning...

so early wake up!

because wants to renew my IC.

After breakfast,

heading to Damansara Heights...

Passing by Help college...

N also Mahsa college...

and my mood has changed...

ya...

she is studying as Physiotherapy course at there...

haha...

still haven't forget about her...

finally reached JPN...

and shock...

lesser people when compare to last time i made IC...

just take 30mins,

finish all the progress and inform that after 2 weeks can come and take the new IC...

This few days I acted very frivolous...

when facing those new trainee in my office...

especially lady...

perhaps in the other words,

spoiling my image...

Acted very gay,

very color wolf,

and etc...

and never knew why I act like that...

Maybe I want to cover the other of me...

Maybe I avoid them to have a good feeling about me...

Maybe my personality has changed...

Maybe I am still waiting for her...

Still thinking about the dream ytd...

I dreamed about her again,

and in the dream, she was very happily with a guy...

once again i felt frustrated...

Really wanted to know,

how to chase u!?

......

....

..

Dream changed again...

I met a lady...

wearing was quite sexy,

and suddenly I became a hungry wolf,

uncontrollable heading to that lady and started to xxxx her...

and i woke up...

was that me?

but I could felt my anger, my hunger, my sadness, N etc when I acted...

ki siao!?

or enjoying?

who know?

14.03.2011 (White Valentine's Day)

If i do not read newspaper...

i never knew that beside valentine's day in 14.02.2011,

still got another white valentine's day in 14.03.2011...

argh...

again...

i think about her...

haha...

crazy sia...

uncontrollable took out my phone,

type:"Happy White Valentine's Day..."

when i was going to send it...

my heart started silly-shally...

maybe she already forget about me...

maybe she already very hate me...

maybe she...

haha...

cancelled the msg again...

brain started to think which gift should i gave her...

but heart told me that did not think too much anymore...

......

felt very contradicted...

but no choice...

coz really love her...

and dunno why?

...

12.03.2011

12.03.2011

Sg. Wang~

I'm coming~

I reached there at 4pm,

kao!

Korean food fair?

What's happened?

Not suppose was Anthony Neely's concert?

= ="

And my phone rang...

Ng and Terence reached already...

went back time square...

kao!

raining...

& I forgot to bring my umbrella......

aiks...

no choice...

hanging around time square, low yat & final station Sg. Wang...

Kao!

6.30pm,

all scene were changed...

Korean food fair was gone...

become Anthony Neely's poster...

&...

So Many People!!!!!

We went to eat Mc Donald 1st~

7.30pm...

The concert started!

Luckily i got a not bad place...

Anthony Neely started his 1st song,

~第一課~

And i forgot to record it...

End with 2nd song,

~散場的擁抱~

I got recorded!

& I was shocked...

because Wai Yee worked part time at there...

Haha...

I thought i Eye Flower tim...

get signature~

Lesson One's Album

Anthony Neely's signature

11pm,

I came out from Time Square,

And i reached a place,

I suddenly stopped...

I got out...

listening song...

"Sorry That I Loved You"

I saw the light was on...

I knew that she had not slept yet...

Do not know why...

I stand there for 30mins...

like waiting for something...

& the song kept on repeating...

Hoping that she would open the window and looked outside...

But...

I thought too much...

This thing won't be happened...

3rd Person...

Never forgive myself...

Sorry That I Loved You...

Leaving with my blessing...

A happiness blessing...

always bless for you...

always beside you...

always protect you...

& Love You...

P/S - Really Miss YOU!!!!!

06.03.2011

05.03.2011

I was heading to KLGCC's club just now,

damn high class...

and i felt myself like sakai edi~

the club could be like 5 star club...

the beautiful scene couldn't remove from my brain...

N i felt very no face ler...

went to this high class place by my little kancil...

XDXDXDXDXD

and the guard saw it also no wanted to choi me...

~skip~

reach inside...

saw many people were busying chip-chatting with each other...

maybe my parents wore not enough high class...

~skip~

N the big boss coming out,

and called us to have a seat at table no.3...

I kept on look on the normal table frm behind...

23... 19... 13... 6... 3!!!!

N very surprisingly...

VIP table no.3

My eye din blur~~~~!!!!!

kao!

i never thought that i could have a seat in VIP table...

and this anniversary i also dunno what lai geh ler~~

and i asked my mum...

Propharm (M) Sdn Bhd????

nvm heard it...

but quite a big company...

coz got oversea ppl eg:korean...

i really shock...

and VIP really have special treat...

eating also got 1 waiter help u to take the food 1 by 1...

= ="

1st time eat like that...

actually last year got 1 time de,

but that time i was in PLKN,

so i didnot attend this anniversary...

Hehehe~

~ Skip ~

Tonight dunno why kept on drink wine...

i looked at other guys,

all drank wine kept on laughing,

like very happy and enjoy...

when i drank wine...

i kept on thought of her...

damn...

another few glasses again...

aiks...

is really...

i couldnot fall down....

and felt more and more clear what am i doin nw...

...

Just 1 week i knew her...

why could i...

...

why?

i wanted to 4get...

why?

the image kept on appeared...

why?

the words at that night once again appeared...

why?

where did i did wrong?

was that falling in love with a girl was a wrong thing?

why?

i would love her?

why?

sry...

maybe i was really drunk...

in my heart...

01.03.2011

I can declare that,

i still think of her...

haha...

too stupid...

Although i already know is impossible...

just want to say,

i'm fine,

i wont do crazy things la...

so...

no need to worry...

P/S - just wondering whether she feels happy when receive my gifts...

21.02.2011

AAAARRRRGGGHHHHH

Exam result coming out today...

Damn nervous...

Whole day at office can't calm down...

and finally check the result via mobile...

PA - B-

MT - B-

PHY - B

CHEM - B

CGPA: 2.84

I think not bad gua...

but...

not very cukup maken for entering U...

nvm bah...

i edi noe it...

coz...

i really no mood!