Really Unlucky~

ARGH...
What wrong with me!?
1 month get 2 penalty...
1 RM30 & another 1 is RM300...
Im getting to be crazy...
I feel very sry to my dad who works hard to feed me,
but i making so much problem to him...
I very regret...
I swear i wont get caught easily next time!

Too many bad things happened towards me this year...
When i refresh back,
really sad...
& also hurt me a lots...
Why?
I asked myself...
I think this is what God trying to give me some resist & I have to overcome it...
OK...
I will face it...
Will a injured condition...
& very very injured...

Can i go through it?
Hope so...
& hope i got enough of power, strength & also confident to face it...

I'm In Bad Mood This Few Days...

Easy getting tired this few days,
When in the boring lesson,
I will start fishing...
>.<"......
Cant control or stop myself from fishing...
Too n too tired...
Why will so tire?

Maybe is my aunt come to my house,
What a terrible n horrible aunt...
She edi noe how terrible she is,
But she still bringing along his son - Destructive Machine...
Every 5am in the early morning,

Aiks...
Started to be noisy...
N it was continue until 6am,
Am I a machine?
How could i afford to pay 100% attention in the class due to this situation... SHHHIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTT!
In the weekend, more tire...
I thought i could sleep until what time i can,
but...
the little naugthy cousin start to make noise n disturb me until i wake up... AARRRGGGGHHHHH...

Few days later,
I could see what a 'beautiful' design in my house...
rubbish throwing anywhere, n many of my things started to be gone...
Maybe i could say it was hided anywhere...
N this time was becoming more serious...
Those note i had made was painted by my cousin...
Im going to be crazy!

One day,
It reached my 'max point' N i felt myself edi going to hit them n kick them out from my house... But i could not...
The angel side had won in the battle...
How could i hit them n kick them out?
My little cousin just a 3-4 years old little baby...
He did not know anythings?
Just could conclude as his mum did not teach him in a real way...
But she is my aunt...
Suddenly,
I felt very sad...
very very sad...
Until the tears in my eye rise out from my eye...
IM CRYING...
Maybe im crying for the aunt does not teach n look after her son well...
Maybe im crying for my cousin being so naughty n bad...

This is an excuse!
I think there are somethings make me more hurt...
I seldom see...
or never see...
I feel myself,
my heart started to become unsteady...

Nothing To Do In The Car...

Just Came Back From Breakfast...

Big Face Pic...

My Nose Big Enuf ler?

My Car & I~

Haha...
Do not know why suddenly so '自恋'...
Really nothing to do...
Argh...
My acne on face is increasing...
Why?
Already came back from NS what?
Still haven't clear?
What the hell is happening?

Maybe I feel abit stress when im study,
sometimes very miss the SPM time & all my ex-classmate,
& having a dance at the class daily.
Long time do not dance,
I think my dance become lousy & lousy...
Thursday i saw the members of UBC training dancing for theirs performance at the stage,
I just simply show my 'pi tui',
really pain...
Maybe long time did not train;
Maybe im taking my stuff while shown.
Haha...
Another breaking king,
the ppl's breaking really strong,
but otherwise not very good enough.

Really tired...
Why the Educational Minister increases the schooling time of Form6?
What the rubbish thinking inside his mind?
& also the teacher in SEMERA...
Some of the school DO NOT follow what minister said,
continue back home at 1pm...
nvm...
Got some of the school until 3.45pm & 4pm...
Pity them...

DO NOT understand why am I feel so tired recently...

1 week...

Why?

Why?

Even me also dunno what is the reason...

Some1 can help me 4get it? Suffering... Fearing...

Sometimes really feel that r we is the toys of gov?

4 Unstoppable Emotion~ 四连拍～

After you have seen the pic above,
u will feel very funny,
laugh,
thinking how cute the baby is...

Wahaha...
I also feel very funny...
laugh unstoptable...

Now Im sharing with those who see my blog,
have a funny day~

Am I Wrong?

Im suffering pain!
When the time i saw u r avoiding me...
i think im understanding y u avoid me...
Just 2 simple reason,
but also a +ve n a -ve reason...
My heart like somethings crushing my heart,
like a band of forces acting on my heart,
breath also hard...
I try to think +ve way,
but myself tell me:'dun dream'

Maybe this is what ppl hav say:'How much u love then how much u hurt'
I have choose to 4get about it.
But my body, my brain, n my heart do not let me do that...
Am i too hem & haw?
Or should i straight forward?
I think it should be leaved to God to decide...
Im no idea...

Today I talk with my Form1 science/Form6 Bio Teacher - Pn. Azian
She said that im chg alot.
Last time im a very inactive & silent student,
but now i hav turn to be active n talk much student.
N i know i need to learn how to communicate wif ppl so that they will not think im bored.
I like to gather information so that i can noe what happen around me;
& also can take care of them, & look after them.
I edi try my best...
But maybe is my problem so that i make u feel im bored...
......

Nothing wrong rite?
Human keep chging theirs personality is to achieve perfect,
to cover some of theirs main problem.
but non of the human in this world is perfect.

In a rush city,
most of the citizen are rushing,
n each of them feel stress when struggle into the society.
But each of them got theirs style to release theirs stress.
Then which style do i release my stress?

My Little Naughty Cousin~

Argh~!!!!!!
Why my aunt like that geh...
Call she never bring her son came,
she act like nth...
Aiks...
No idea...

Also dunno how long will she stay...
I think im goin to crazy...
1st day come only,
my house become so 'beautiful'...
My note, my book, my drawing separated on the floor...

ARRRGGGHHHHH!

Today Feeling~

Today, 4 period free to play due to the teachers do not come in our class for several reasons.
Haha...
But P.A. teacher got drop some works for us to do...
What?
Combination Graph?
How to do?
It take us to finish it about 4 periods...
So close I am busying for my designing,
so i just copy from my friends XP...

And a new Math. T relief teacher come in & introduce herself.
She is come from Sabah and studying about engineering.
Hope she is a good in teaching Math T,
If not,
we have to study ourselve...

Muet class...
Omg...
Teacher has left a work for us to do...
About the issue of 'Teaching Science & Math In English or BM'
Got many things need to research & collect the information.
Damn...
Just tuition back,
tire like hell...
aiks...
Answering it based on my general knowledge bah...

Chemistry class...
I am surprise that i can score so high in the test...
39%... consider high because the highest is 40+ somethings...
Actually i also do not thought i did well at that time,
because i blank 1-2 questions and i answer it in no mood...
meaning that no mood to answering like cincai do...

After school's study,
I have to rush to KL for tuition class,
Physics,
My hard works do not make my down...
Although just a little praise,
I feel very happy.
This is because my physics is very poor in SPM,
can be said that always fail in physics & hate physics very much.
But now change already,
i used to love physics,
always talk about physics.
It's work!
Finally i realized that actually physics not that hard,
if u do more practice,
i think u can score it well in the exam.

Haha...

People should always live for happy,
stop blaming to the God that your life is full of bad luck.
If you change the other angle's view,
actually still got many people more bad luck compare with you.
We should appreciate what we had have now.
And complete the mission what God has gave us.
I do not know what the mission is,
because the mission need to find out by yourself~




临睡前的自恋照～
哈哈～～

My Design~

This is my design & model for my chess club's logo.
Due to the mats i use for the model is old n rough.
the feel for view slightly bad...
Aiks...
But im sure my design can win those malay in the club.
Haha... The time i use for the design almost 6hours and is including:
Thinking,Drawing & Producing.
I think i will ask for my fren to compare which 1 is better.
Different ppl different view.
N i will take the majority voted.

Hmm...
Let's say about today my feeling.
Quite moody...
Sometimes I hate some of the driver very much...
They do not know how dangerous they are...
Cut beside without any signal,
& cut beside with signal but without looking the car beside...
This kind of irresponsible driver make me disgusted,
And some of them nearly make me get accident.
But luckily my reaction is good,
avoid those incoming accident.
But after that,
how about those newbie?
Not all of them can handle this kinds of situation.
Hope that those irresponsible driver chg theirs altitude when driving,
& for newbies,
train enough before driving at outside,
because driving is not such easy things,
some ppl will take care you but some ppl will injured u.

What A Genergetic Day

Haha... Today physics enters chapter 7 already - Gravitational Force.
I do not know why today i am so energetic.
Maybe yesterday i chat with she.
Haha... Jumping the topics already.
My Physics teacher has talked about the gravitational force not yet can be explained.
It is too wide, the gravitational force includes many types of energy.
And the scientists still not yet found the solution to explain.

'If a apple can drop from a tree to the ground,
why the moon will not drop into our Earth?'
Teacher said.
And at the moment, my mind comes out many question.
Is inside the Earth is a small sun?
Every star inside contain a sun?
The moon is dropping but in a very slow motion due to the force of attractive by the other sun?
Too many question.
But I cant gain a solution...
Because what am i learned is limited.
If i want to know the detail, I need to continue study.
To search for the truth.

Haha...
Physics is tough and got a lot of calculation.
if want to master physics,
Not easy.

Meanwhile, I have ask her for dating.
And she accepts the offer from me.
But i am not sure is that good?
Haha... Who knows?
The world is full with up and down,
We cant predict anythings.

想通了

经过漫长的思考后，我终于想通了。
感情这种东西是急不来的，要耐心等待。
最重要不要让感情影响你的生活。
毕竟你还有很多使命等待你去完成。
还没完成使命，自己就先垮，岂不辜负别人对你的期待？
虽然真的是很喜欢她，但是我不能因为她无心于课业。
那触电没电死我，反而电醒了我。
以前的我是如何安慰失恋的朋友？
怎么会安慰人却无法控制自己？
哈哈。。。回来咯，贫血男，不要在浪费时间了，她也不希望你变成这样。
你很喜欢她和事业是另一回事，要分清楚！

从现在起，我要再一次进入心如止水的状态。
观察及分析事情，以及控制自己的情绪，不要让情绪影响你一生。
课业是课业，感情是感情，要妥善分配。
明天还有KM的小测验，要去复习一篇，我可不想辜负Miss Lee对我的期待。

心不在焉

今天很早就醒，也不知道为何那么早醒。
老天，7点罢了厄。
懒洋洋的我在床上懒床了一会，便下床了。
和往常一样，吃早饭，看报纸。
翻翻下，虾！A型流感第2波来袭！
正在沉睡中的大脑顿时醒了，一大堆问题顿时运作。
我想起了下个周末的gathering是否该取消？
或是将原先要去Sunway Pyramid 的地点更改到 Brem Mall.
毕竟 Brem Mall 不是大型的 Shopping Complex.
被感染的机率也没那么高。

我赶紧开启我的论坛，要编辑那个公告，将地点更改。
我的手停了，我觉得我这么做是不是冲动了一些？
我有了一个念头，打电话问他们的意见。
可能时间太早了，全部还没睡醒，打了几通都没人接。
我也开始着急了起来，寻找任何一个回来的人。
找找下，找到了她的名，我的手停了下来。
忽然想打给她，当却怕吵醒她。
我傻傻的将刚才要做的东西顿时忘了一干二净。

我全身震了一些，手很迅速的收起，感觉到我的右手一阵阵麻麻。
切！
触电了。
怎么那么不小心摸到插头的角，也没将插座关电。
我傻乎乎的坐在一旁，拿出了我的物理练习，头脑依然一片空白。

睡不着。。。

在床上躺了很久，无法入眠。。。
可能今天没上课，没补习，所以晚上那么有精神，有精神去想她。
已经一个星期多了，想忘记她又忘不了。
每当看到某某女孩像她时，或者是她的名时，茫茫的脑海中出现了她。

这几天，心里总是麻麻的，酸酸的，感觉上她在避开我。
最近在报章上看到A型流感在她的地区蔓延，Call她没人接，Msn她又没回应，
有时看到我上线就好像看到鬼一样立刻下线，真的真的很担心她。
我有那么恐怖吗？那么变态吗？
有时很想问：为什么要避开我？如果是这样的话我宁可妳直接跟我说明一切。
我也尽量让我每一分每一秒做东西，不要再胡乱猜测。
我怕我一停顿下来，不听话的头脑总是爱乱想。
谁叫我习惯上玩棋的坏毛病，没分每秒都猜测对方的想法。

哈。。。连发梦也会看到她。
看到她走着走着，离我越来越远。
无论我怎么追，那段距离还是增加中。
然后眼睛张开，看到风叶旋转中。
原来又一次梦见她。

希望她不要再逃避我了，我想她想到就快疯了！
我真的是很想Call她，和她表明我的心意。
但却怕她不接电话，关机。
在这样下去，我的勇气就来枯燥了。

呼！
写下了，感觉有点舒服。
希望等下睡得着～

02/07/2009

My Muet is too weak...

This week, i felt myself really weak in english... I saw my classmate speak fluent english very easily and them could understand wat teacher asking about...

During the time teacher asking question n presenter answering...
I almost cant understand what them were talking about...
Feel a bit stress...
And I am no even stand well while presenting...
My hand was shaking...
n the tension make me couldnt think n dunno wat to say...

I hate presenting... coz it was my weakness... I fail to make myself stop shaking... Even couldnt stop myself from shaking...

My Terminator~!

Wahaha... Finally i did it! These are the terminators that i draw! And the process before i color it as the poster i going to hand out today~

Quite tough to coloring... Sometimes i prefer just hand out my sketching picture... I notice that after i have color it, i feet a bit upset... because i fail to spread my color... actually this also can be 1 of my failure product...

But nvm... i will never do tat mistake again...

N i will plan to draw a transformer soon... Wahaha... Quite a tough product...
But challenging...

What A Excellent Speech Fighting...

Fuyoh! What a fantastic speech fighting, 21students & Miss Yap were fighting with Boon Hau...

01 of July 2009

Today, Boon Hau be the volunteer to make his presentation... Hehe... Based on what he had did before this, we all already planned to ask him questions~ ( This is because every time we present, he sure ask the question and most of the question was related to impact... ) I still remember i got said: What is the impact for you by asking questions? Haha... What a dangerous warning...

And this dangerous day was arrived... basically, Miss Yap will take about 2 period to let 3-4ppl present... But today she was break the records! 2 period jus for asking 1 ppl n the lucky 1 is Boon Hau... He was speaking about HIV and AIDS... First question and some sub questions was asked by Miss Yap edi make him very nervous n stress. And then, when he was escape from Miss Yap's questions successfully, his nightmare was landed...

All of guys included gals too, keep asking n argueing the points tat he had gave... No matter how he answered, he was rejected by us and need to think another point to fight bak... ( 21 ppl think fast or 1 ppl think fast? ) Wahaha... Too funny... But also pity on him, who call him said to eliminate HIV, all human in the world should kill... Haha... What is stupid answer... But is truth... HIV can eliminate when human is terminated... But wif a logic thinking, any human will support his points?