Am I Wrong?

Im suffering pain!
When the time i saw u r avoiding me...
i think im understanding y u avoid me...
Just 2 simple reason,
but also a +ve n a -ve reason...
My heart like somethings crushing my heart,
like a band of forces acting on my heart,
breath also hard...
I try to think +ve way,
but myself tell me:'dun dream'

Maybe this is what ppl hav say:'How much u love then how much u hurt'
I have choose to 4get about it.
But my body, my brain, n my heart do not let me do that...
Am i too hem & haw?
Or should i straight forward?
I think it should be leaved to God to decide...
Im no idea...

Today I talk with my Form1 science/Form6 Bio Teacher - Pn. Azian
She said that im chg alot.
Last time im a very inactive & silent student,
but now i hav turn to be active n talk much student.
N i know i need to learn how to communicate wif ppl so that they will not think im bored.
I like to gather information so that i can noe what happen around me;
& also can take care of them, & look after them.
I edi try my best...
But maybe is my problem so that i make u feel im bored...
......

Nothing wrong rite?
Human keep chging theirs personality is to achieve perfect,
to cover some of theirs main problem.
but non of the human in this world is perfect.

In a rush city,
most of the citizen are rushing,
n each of them feel stress when struggle into the society.
But each of them got theirs style to release theirs stress.
Then which style do i release my stress?